Every day is so busy and peppered with small talk about work and its happenings, a joke here, a comment there. At the end of today, with all the pressure off, I really wanted to stop and have a decent conversation with someone but...there was noone. The room was empty.
And then home to my own company. At home I found myself sitting at my computer, gazing across the room. I knew that I had it within me to switch my thoughts to something more positive and more constructive. But I didn't want to. Positive thoughts weren't going to bring fine company into my lounge room, especially on a weeknight.
So I cooked. I checked my emails. I put on some good music. I ate a hearty curry meal (well, it was without the chicken because I forgot to get the chicken! But for a girl who has been known to have toast as an evening meal, this was still a grand effort). And somehow I did forget about the fact that it was just me for dinner again. And I guess I did enjoy my second glorious attempt at cooking a curry dish. And I did lose myself in my music.
I feel good for the end of a busy day. I guess, I don't feel so bad right now about being on my own. In fact, my mind is thinking about what needs to be done before I go to sleep. I think I feel rested which is a nice feeling as I haven't felt this way for a long time.
How do you get by when you wish you had company but you know it can't happen at that particular time?
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