One of the surprises blogging has brought me is the realisation that good things happen when not expected. Over the last few months of ill health I've been taking it easy, doing only what needed to be done. For a time when I sometimes did nothing more than watch TV, it is surprising how life rolls forward, more productive than ever.
I think I knew that rich growth comes out of crisis but I don't think I appreciated how much life keeps giving us even during humdrum periods of nothingness.
A little like Spring. After weeks of dreariness, unpleasant coldness and wintry neglect, Spring sees the most beautiful specimens appear out of nowhere. Colour, scent and beauty rise triumphant.
Winter: seemingly dormant and yet significant work is happening beneath the surface. We just can't see it. We have to trust it is happening, if we recognise it at all.
I usually have a list of goals, or at the very least, a to-do list. But I didn't while I was sick, except for a few jottings here and there. And surprisingly, I've managed to tick off a goal or two from my list.
I have managed to:
- stop taking sugar in my tea (a step towards healthier eating)
- start making 'rock cakes' ( eating healthier foods by cooking from scratch, less sugar than recipes for biscuits etc)
- cut back on time on the internet (certainly not always, but trying to be more intentional about using it of an evening)
- persevere with letting the colour grow out of my hair, though it looks like it'll take forever (living greener and simpler)
- buy a couple of hats! I only buy hats for the sun. I don't buy hats 'for fashion' but this time I was glad to have an excuse. I desperately needed something to hide the contrasting hair colours which, to be honest, is not so easy on the eye! I think the socially anxious me wanted to wear hats but was always too reluctant to take the plunge.
So there you have it. Things that didn't happen when I was 'fighting fit' and life was 'normal'. Theses are the obvious things. What's exciting is that a lot more has probably happened beneath the surface. It's just that I don't realise it!